ragu

[azgarth]

mornin'

ok man, what the hell?

die early? how long?
damnit, that sucks.

how come? from birth or something?

az

[raguman]

im gunna die around 25

and they can't do nothing about it.... listen im fine with it... i have been through all my life

[ButWai]

At least you won't have any time to regret big decisions you make...

But, man...

Wai

[raguman]

lol, 25 is an estimate aswell it could be shorter it could be longer.... listen you didnt have to make a post... i'll be normal and live me life normally

[azgarth]

damn, but if it's something with your hart, can't they just replace your hart?

az

[raguman]

nah its something thats been going round with my blood from my heart... its like a realy slow infection in my blood that will soon kill me

[raguman]

if they take out my heart they'll have to drain the blood in other words wich has a 93% chance i'll die

[azgarth]

:( damn

i guess talking has no use, ill shut up

az

[raguman]

lol, it doesn't bother me talking about it... it hasn't boverd me that i am going to die aswell

[64fanatic]

when did this come up?

[ButWai]

Good to know death doesn't scare ya.

Wai

[raguman]

never has done, never will do

[raguman]

any way i got around another 15 - 25 years of my life left i mizewell spend it wisely

[azgarth]

indeed, man, i deeply respect you.

and death shouldn't scare, i could well imagine that the lack of controll would however.

@64
in another topic

az

[raguman]

and i can't think of no better way than to spend my school years talking to you guys

[64fanatic]

I don't know how you can't be scared.


Not existing at all scares me.

[ButWai]

@Ragu: That makes me, at least, feel good inside.

Wai

[azgarth]

yeah?

i wouldn't be scared by death, or not existing, i would be scared by the lack of controll tho, knowing you have a bleedin' timebomb in yer chest.

@ragz, well, lets stay here and talk then

az

[raguman]

nice... *sigh* im off to bed in a bit, i skipped skwl today cause i wasn't feeling to well, but i still got like 10 mins left

@64 it has never boverd me i just no that it worrys my hole family that i could just go at any point
every time i bleed from my chest, i dont care, every time i fall over a blood gashes all out my knee because of the blood so close to my skin, i dont really care that i will die

[64fanatic]

Hopefully Dohgames lasts forever.

Somebody will have to inherit the server :p

The seniors with 50 000 posts will pass it on to a young member.

[Crimson Blade]

lol and keep all f these old posts so we live on forever within the forum.

[azgarth]

you 50000, me 100000 then, if it goes on like this

but somewhere in the middle

but yeah, that would be nice

az

[raguman]

wouldnt it lol, also i deeply respect all of you for actually listening to me and worrying about me lol

[azgarth]

anyone who doesnt care about those he works with should rot in hell

and you're a nice guy, so why would one talk with you?

az

[64fanatic]

how can we not?


We're a small community.
The longer you stay here, the more we'll get to know you.

[ButWai]

I agree with Az and 64.

Wai

[raguman]

that is why i love doh forums lol

[azgarth]

and why you fit in so well

az

[raguman]

yer, tht aswell cause you lot are awsome.... not like the people at... ngemu ( wan**s )

[ButWai]

Thank you! I try.

Well, not really, I just am this way, but whatever.

Wai

[64fanatic]

I don't fit in on huge forums, or maybe I do, but I'm not used to not mattering at all until my post count is 10 000.

[azgarth]

heh, had some bad experiance there?

az

[raguman]

the people are horrid and serious... any way cya later

[64fanatic]

ever been to emutalk?

you haven't seen serious.

[raguman]

are they that bad?

[azgarth]

not sure if i wanna know lol.

anyway, cya in 16 hours then mate

az

[raguman]

im not off no more lol

[azgarth]

indeed, 's good

az

[raguman]

yosh ( yes in japonese )

sooo... what games are you into?

[azgarth]

rpgs mostly

crpgs if i get to choose

az

[raguman]

nice...
rpgs's are my fav. aswell but i aslo like tactical

[Crimson Blade]

ever been to emutalk?

you haven't seen serious.

or newgrounds:(

[raguman]

newgrounds is helarious

[64fanatic]

newground is serious? no they just flame everything in site I findit very funny to drop by theer once and awhille

[azgarth]

indeed, they act like assholes, wich could be confused with seriusism

az

[Crimson Blade]

yeah. i've had many ppl on there not be able to take a joke.
i mean they're just dicks.

[raguman]

i know there a bunch of pis takers

[azgarth]

not like this place tho

az

[raguman]

damn rite

[raguman]

*cough*

[azgarth]

what games are you in atm?

az

[raguman]

mostly guitar hero 2 and drum mania lol

you?

[azgarth]

zelda TP with butwai, brilliant game, a bit easy, like all zeldas, but still, brilliant

az

[raguman]

the best zelda was ocariner of time

[azgarth]

indeed

tp is nice tho

az

[raguman]

yer my cuz has got it, we got sick of collecting those bugs the second time

[azgarth]

i'd use a faq for that

az

[raguman]

nah it's not that we can't do it, its that we can't be botherd

[azgarth]

aah, k

az

[raguman]

lol plus it is a compliacted game

[azgarth]

complicated?

az

[raguman]

i'm not the most inteligent when it comes to games

[azgarth]

whats complicated about it then?

az

[raguman]

like you know in the forest temple, it took me a while to figure u had to lock onto a 'z' formation to open the gate to the boss key

[azgarth]

i watched the floor

az

[raguman]

yer so did i but i never knew you had to lock on erm all

[azgarth]

but and i did it together, it's fun

az

[raguman]

yer the first boss was two easy, it never hit me once

[azgarth]

dual clawshots is fun!

az

[raguman]

kwl ...

[azgarth]

aye, you get em when you get... wait, not gonna say it, no spoiler tags work here

see? normally, this should generate a spoiler tag

az

[raguman]

... ok

[azgarth]

btw, if yer stuck, gamefaqs.com is a good faq site

az

[raguman]

yer i know that ... thank you lol

[azgarth]

yw lol

az

[raguman]

yuppo

[azgarth]

how far are you guys with it?

az

[raguman]

i dunno havn't been round to my cuzins lately.. but when i last played on it... collecting bugs for the second time

[azgarth]

and the main story?

az

[raguman]

collecting those dark bugs for that spirit the second time round

[azgarth]

dark bugs for spirits?

oh, poes

or do you mean the golden bugs for agatha(or whatever that girls name was)

az

[ButWai]

No, I think he means the insects that steal the tears, you know, in the leaking vessels.

Wai

[raguman]

that is what i mean but, those tear bugs were you have to collect 10 or 12 of erm

[ButWai]

I liked collecting them...

But maybe that's my lust for non-real violence...

Wai

[raguman]

i think its boaring realy... noffing fun of it

[azgarth]

they're 2 easy, just there on the map

az

[raguman]

well, i better be off to bed now...school tomorrow

[ButWai]

Sleep well, Ragu

Wai

[azgarth]

damn, sleep well mate

az

[raguman]

yuo two to

[azgarth]

thanks mate, till soon

az

[raguman]

BACK MY JOLLY GOOD FRIENDS!, where was we?

[azgarth]

here?

az

[mostal]

Not to ask a personal question, so feel free to disregaurd it if you choose; What is the specific problem with you blood line? Virus? or is it a difficentcy in the production of blood cells? My mother masters in bioengineering, so I'd like to completely understand what the affliction is. Once again, if you don't feel like answering, don't.

[raguman]

its a heart virus that i was born all i know that it will kill me, it is eating away at me little by little that is mostly all i know sorry if i can't give any more info

[azgarth]

but what does the virus do?

and it's a virus?

i have way to small red blood cells, that live short lives, but i make up for it by generating loads of them, i have probs with bone marrow and blood, nothing is lethal, how does the virus work, to destroy you?

az

[raguman]

it eats away at something that i can't remember what was called, and it affects the heart, i don't know why i was born with it, but it still has never boverd me

[azgarth]

never bothered you? common, that can't be true, anyone who has bad stuff gets bothered by it from time to time.

even though im used to the permanent pain, im still quite irritated by it when it renders me unable to focus and do pretty much anything.

i'd guess it's the same with you, no?

az

[raguman]

no, it boverd me once, when i found out, after that i had no fear and regrets

[azgarth]

when did you find out?

az

[raguman]

when i was 4 years old

[azgarth]

that must've hurt.

how can you let it not bother you?

az

[raguman]

ahh well, i dunno i guese there isn't much for me in this world, i have alot of things i love, but aah, i can't do anything about it... so why cry every day when i can spend my life enjoying it

[azgarth]

hmm indeed.

th cough part of it?

does it hurt?

az

[raguman]

most of the time yes, most of the time i cough up blood, but again im used to it

[azgarth]

you never really get used to pain, not in that you won't care wether it's there or not.

everpresent pain is bad.

az

[raguman]

i suppose, lol i would probaly die form =coughing up blood ( blood loss ) than 20ish years from now

[azgarth]

can't get blood added? via a tube?

az

[raguman]

i dunno its only samll amounts of blood so its highly inpossible

[azgarth]

impossible?

wouldn't small amount of blood increase the chance of succes?

since you only loose it slowly, you can wait for a while, then add alot of blood, then wait, etc.

az

[raguman]

maybe i barely no much about it so i dunno

[azgarth]

you didn't ask the docs?

az

[raguman]

nah i would have understood it

[azgarth]

i 've been 14 yrs in and out of hospitals, i always wanted to know, really, it helps

az

[raguman]

ill see next tim ei go to the hospital

[azgarth]

ok, good luck

az

[raguman]

thank you

[azgarth]

you're quite welcome

az

[raguman]

lol, we can go like this all day

[azgarth]

lets not tho, we got ppl breathing in our neck for spamming already, no matter how fun it is

az

[raguman]

ah well, yer we should stop but its only a few....

there are alot of us
AZ
Butwai
Crimsonblade
Raguman....... well come to think of it... thats it... oh well

who the hell is gay enough to think its a huge problem that they MUST sort out

[azgarth]

indeed

64 was quite the poster here 2, but he's busy with his board/site atm.

hell come back tho

az

[raguman]

yer i wasn't sure if i was gunna put him down cuase i havn't seen him much

[azgarth]

yeah, don't worry though, he WILL come back, he always does

az

[raguman]

smart....

[azgarth]

oi, he's a nice guy, you'll like him

az

[raguman]

sweet lol, another dude for the gang

[azgarth]

heh, indeed, when his site stuff has calmed down a bit, we'll see him

az

[raguman]

what is his site?

is it a games music track thingy...?

[azgarth]

ya, it is

az

[raguman]

aaaah!
KWL

i'll be sure to sign up

[azgarth]

do that, im there, just not posting(i don't want to get the rep i have here there 2 fast)

az

[raguman]

lol, scared you would spam to much???

i think i have signed up anyway, fox was the 1st spammer i was the second

we called it on his forum spammers page

[azgarth]

im not scared i would spam 2 much, im scared i would post 2 much

az

[raguman]

thats what i meant lol

[azgarth]

i know, but there's a difference :)

az

[raguman]

i know lol

[mostal]

Sorry it's been a while, is it like a constent infection in the blood and effect tissue whenever it passes through the heart or is it sticking to the tissue like plaque? Once again, if you don't want to answer you don't have to.



PS: I posted once before...

[raguman]

its a constent infection that came from the heart ( somehow ) and is now passing through my blood

[azgarth]

but does it permanently affect the tissue around it?
if you die from blood loss, can't you just get blood every oncei n a while?

az

[raguman]

i don't know, i barely know anything about, i don't want to know

[azgarth]

why don't you want to know?

i'd like to know what the hell i have, been in and out of hospitals for 14 years, all they could tell me is that i have SOMETHING, no idea what...

why don't you want to know?

az

[raguman]

i just don't want to know what is killing me

[azgarth]

why not?

would you not want to try and prolong your life? or alteast that of others?

az

[raguman]

listen man, i have my reasons, i just don't want to know

[azgarth]

cool down man, i just can't understand why one would not want to know what he is fighting, it's hard to place in my worldview.

az

[raguman]

i wasn't getting angry it's just not your business, don't take that the wrong way but...

it has nothing to do with you

[azgarth]

hey, that's okay man, don't worry, ill shut up.

it's just MY curiosity and lack of comprehension, i was curious, would like to understand, that's all, don't want to talk about it? don't.

i mean no harm ok?

az

[mostal]

That's fine, I think I understand basicly what your talking about. I won't ask any more questions either.

[raguman]

sorry if i seem in a mardy, but heh, not every one knows how their gunna die

also mine would most likely be painfull

[azgarth]

pain sucks :(

i built my limit of pain for a reason, pain is not good.

i hope it takes a long while, and that it won't be that painfull man.

az

[raguman]

well i've had to live with it, i still can.... i hope i still we be able to... last night i could not get too sleep because it was on my mind

[azgarth]

:(

sorry for making you think of it man.

az

[raguman]

haha! nah it don't worry i should have never brought this thing up anyway

[azgarth]

you should, it's part of you, like sleepyness and good drawing is part of but, and my eternal pain since birth is part of me.

az

[raguman]

man i got a weird feeling in my chest

[azgarth]

how come? because of the virus?

az

[raguman]

no it wouldn't be that... i don't think so.... sorry i'll be back in a min

[azgarth]

ok, sorry mate

az

[raguman]

lol i just threw up... oh god... man sorry for bringing this up

[azgarth]

damn :(

is the talking agitating it?

az

[raguman]

i dont realy care... my chest is just really tight

[azgarth]

damn, ok

az

[raguman]

ah, well im fine now... i just swollowed about 6 pills... NOW I AM FINE!

[azgarth]

what kind of pills?

az

[mostal]

Hey and man, sorry about your chest pain.

[raguman]

erm... painkillers ....pariceatemal.... more painkillers... other blue pills

[azgarth]

paracetamol is pain killer(+blood thinner i believe, i take it against migraine, aspirine against headache, or other way around, dunno)

be carefull with painkillers man, i've had times i took 6 a day, if not more, and off days i took whole strips in an hour(yes, im as amazed im here living and breathing as you are)

az

[raguman]

woah man!, and nice to see you to mostal

ure lucky to be alive

[mostal]

I've been reading on heart related viruses, because investigation is what I do. I found some stuff that sound close to what you're discribing such as; coxsakievirus B [b=bacillus]. When I can't do anything I at least go to study it, makes me feel slightly important. Sorry about that man.

[raguman]

lol its nice to see your taking an intrest man

[azgarth]

@mos, that's pretty much like me, only im lazy by nature.

that, and the fact that i like to know through the person, sure, it gives a colored view, but that might explain some certain stuff aswell

az

[raguman]

well if you could find out. i won't need a doctor

[azgarth]

why don't you try to find out yourself?
why not fight?

az

[raguman]

1. because im to dumb to find out for my self
2. because i cannot

[mostal]

dude, if I don't post on a topic like this, I'm probably studying the topic. Goodness, I'm not inhuman.... entirely.

[raguman]

what you meen mostal

[azgarth]

nay ragz, yer pretty smart, you can find out if you want, ask the doctors, let them school you, tell you the specs of it, what can be done against it, that will also be the fight.

az

[raguman]

aah, i'll see what i can do

[azgarth]

not for me mate, fo you

az

[mostal]

You give me a scientific name I'll have a report by morning man. That's what I do.

[raguman]

i don't have a clue what it is called... is what i came up with

[mostal]

well it's your buisness and I'll not push more for any information.

[raguman]

just look under heart diesease/ condition that affects the blood stream

and im not sure doctors know of it

[azgarth]

i hope they do, knowing what it is is half the problem

after 16 damn years they still don't know what the **** is wrong with me
hope they know what it is with you, probably do, since they know it affects your life expectancy


az

[mostal]

is it triggered by a genetical trait?

[azgarth]

ragz?

az

[raguman]

it is not from my parents or grandparents... they never had anything like this..

also az what is wrong with you..

..what are the symptoms?

[azgarth]

wrong with me? no one knows

symptoms?

pain every single second, and alot of other things i don't know, gave up on ever really finding out i think, 14 years in and out of a hospital do that y'know?

az

[raguman]

yer you told me bout the hospital....

symptoms are things like the pain every single second.. and alot of other things

[azgarth]

indeed

az

[raguman]

yer

also mostal what do you think it is?

[mostal]

well, I don't have sufficent information, sounds like it is effecting the heart musle tissue. Spirilla seems logical or bacilli. It sounds like they find this virus uncommon, so it would most likely be caused by a mixture of the envirement to your personal imune system and anatomy... Honestly I don't know enough about your condition to make a sufficent guess. I should add, that what I meant by it being genetical triggered is that, something in your system mixed with a certain disease, or perhaps is more vulnerable to this disease, that is an imune system reaction.

[raguman]

i don't know really

[mostal]

well the way medical knowledge is progressing, I think they'll be able to do something for you when the time comes. They have proceedures to cut viruses like cancer in a third, I'm sure something can be done. Something can always be done.

[raguman]

okay, lets hope so... im having a checkk up in three days..

[azgarth]

give us intel what its called then ok?

az

[Mormaso]

(yeah, posting now)
Don't die D:
It's good that you don't fear it though, but I guess everyone will die
Unless your 25 now, I agree with mostal, I think something will be done in the time given.
Please tell us what happens at the check up! please?

[raguman]

ok sure

[azgarth]

found out what it's called?

az

[/-/3/_/_0//\//34127/-/]

:O what a great thing to come back to

[azgarth]

what?

az

[/-/3/_/_0//\//34127/-/]

ragus gonna...go...soon :\ how old is he now?

[azgarth]

13 or 14 i think?

az

[mostal]

Ragu, we talkin about you in the third person here? You ok with this?

[azgarth]

he can come in when he wants to, can't he?

az

[mostal]

Only awquardly at this point... the reason I ask is because he's gone from the forums completely...

[azgarth]

yeah, im gonna ask him on msn whats the deal when i see him

az

[raguman]

yo ...

[azgarth]

hey man, i asked, but had to log, why weren't you online over here for a while?

az

[raguman]

complete busyness and i have been in the hospital for a day lol

[azgarth]

why?

az

[raguman]

kidney problem, when i had my checkup they found out that my other kidney is twice the size as normal

[azgarth]

damn! it ok now?

az

[raguman]

yer fine

[azgarth]

ok, good

az